I’m a SAPPI.
What’s that, you ask? A Socially Anxious People Pleasing Introvert (SAPPI).
It doesn’t get any better than that!
Let me explain….
I’m an introvert, and I enjoy being alone.
But when I am in social situations, I get anxious.
I also don’t like disappointing people, so I end up being a people pleaser.
The difference between social anxiety and introversion :
I’m a socially anxious introvert.
However, there is a difference between the two. This video explains just that :
My favorite words :
I’m an extremely bubbly person, who speaks a little too fast when excited, saying things that I often regret later.
At such times, ‘Sorry’ and ‘Thanks’ are two words which always come to the rescue.
They have helped diffuse many an awkward situation, because being polite is always looked upon with favour, but being weird isn’t.
Speaking to new people :
I absolutely hate answering calls or speaking to unknown people.
I often stare at the phone, till it stops ringing, and then check Truecaller, to see if I know the person calling.
If I do, then I call them back.
Else, I ignore the call. (If it’s urgent, the person usually calls again, and then I always answer. Haha.)
My love for texting/emailing :
Strangely, I don’t get anxious when it comes to texting, emailing or replying to comments on my posts.
I’ve actually made amazing friends online, with whom I interact with more than I do with my best friends!
People pleasing – Situation #1 :
As a SAPPI (an acronym I came up with just before writing this article. I know, I’m brilliant! *wink*), I get mortified when people do not smile, or do not use emoticons in their text messages.
I then take it upon myself, as my mission of the day, to make them smile, by either cracking a joke or complimenting them.
And if they still don’t smile, I will end up spending a good hour or two, wondering what I did to piss them off.
People pleasing – Situation #2 :
Another weird situation I’ve often put myself in, is when the person I’m speaking to misunderstands what I say, and instead of correcting them (because I don’t want to embarrass them), I play along. I just nod or agree with whatever they say.
I embarrass myself in order to not let someone else feel embarrassed! How stupid is that! Empathy on a whole other level, right?
As you can see, being a SAPPI is extremely stressful.
I guess it’s time for me to read ‘The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F***‘ once again.
Weird rant over!
Do any of you feel this way too, or am I the only one?
Note : In this age where most people masquerade their true character, speaking about your weaknesses/insecurities can be quite freeing.
I’ve done so in the past as well, in a post titled 'Self-love & Relationships'.