There's a radio,
Who's been broken in the past,
Hence, she incessantly hums.
There's a boy, calm and sweet,
Who listens to her humming every day,
Until he falls asleep.
"I wonder how you'll feel when I stop humming", says the radio to the boy.
"I'd feel happy, because you would have finally healed", replies the boy.
I have always been an open book, and I thought it was my strong suit,
Turns out I was wrong, very wrong.
While sharing our sorrows has been proven to speed up the healing process,
Speaking endlessly about them, for years and years, only keeps the wounds fresh.
Thing is, if you keep picking a wound, it will never heal,
And sadly, I've learnt that the hard way.
For years, I've spoken about my past (heck, it's the reason I started writing), and I thought I was getting stronger,
But speaking about it constantly only made me weaker, and kept hurting me more than I knew.
I've finally realised that sometimes it's best to do the healing in private,
And only speak about the heaven you achieved after, instead of the hell you went through before.
So from now on, I have decided not to cry about the pain of my past,
But only smile at the beauty of my present.
Here's to a future of living in the moment,
And loving life, every step of the way!
P. S. I have deleted all blog posts about my past, and will refrain from speaking/writing about it from now on.
I have two wonderful people to thank, for their life-changing advice -
1. Kristan (My most favorite guy, who has always been super supportive. 'The Broken Radio' bit above was actually part of a conversation we had.)
2. Kalyan (A blogger and psychologist, who helped me realise that I was still in pain.)
Thank you, boys, for motivating me to begin this journey of healing!
I am also tremendously grateful to my immediate family and best friends, who have borne my non-stop blabbering, especially about my past, all these years.
And last, but not least, a big thank you to all my readers. I truly appreciate you!
Thank you for reading! Stay blessed!